POEM: Realization - Contemplation

by Guest Poet - Ayesha Javed

I close my eyes, the flash back starts.
Tears roll down as I was restless, curt.
Back to the times, where I was tested by my Lord…
I wish I were then tenacious, steadfast.

As I was often chafed then,
I failed to realize then,
That I did what the devil said
And that strong I could be by controlling myself in anger…

Now here,
I wish I were strong then …
I wish I could swallow my rage…
I keep pulling myself up from drowning deep down,
Though, things keep pulling me so down.

Day and night I weep to my Lord,
Seeking refuge and forgiveness.
As I, missed those Golden opportunities of earning rewards from my Lord.
As I, missed those Golden opportunities of my sins to be washed.

At midst,

My Lord bestows me with His mercy on.

This is when; when my process of elucidation is switched on.

Now that this process of elucidation is on,

I’ve realized that I was at fault.

I repent to my Lord with my heart out.

I pray for the patience and elucidation that will make me strong,

Because I don’t want to miss those golden opportunities now!

I gaze the skies talking to my Lord,

Tears keep rolling down along

And I thank my Lord.

For I,

I’ve just begun to be grateful with all that I had

And all that I’ve got.

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